A friend i need...my life sucks?

Ok wow !st I want to say It's not ur fault about your parents situation its ur dads for not being a man! your mom is hurt but she is being very very childish in her behavior towards you what difference would it have made if she knew right there and then or when u told her the situation is there and she should not fault you ...u were caught between and thought itover and thought you made the right choice...so she really needs to open her eyes and she will so stay strong on that one! pullin away from your previous girl can mean ur scared of being huryt or doing the hurting so ur started pulling away alittle un sure of things. But if you really love her u should show her the love you have been showing her.....remember she stuck by you thru all this too! The best friend thing thats just the next to ya thing since ur pulling back from ur girl this friend is movin in on ur feelings thats all she knows your down and kind of using that to her advantage...pull away from that hot isn't anything compared to love and ! ya know that. And no ur not like ur dad ur freakin 15 yrs old ur suppose to experience at your age and its normal to feel things......your dad is a lying cheating fool! who hurt you ,your mom and made a mess of things...him telling you he hates u is so immature i can't even belkieve he's a dad? for real! he made the fk-up not you ..........you love your mom and thats it and u felt it wrong! u did what u felt you had to do to clear ur mind! he needs to fess up and be a real man...your gonna be ok for real your just going thru **** that unfortuantely you have no control of but it will pan out you need to talk to your mom too and tell her why you waited to talk to her about this and that it hurts you that she faults you when u are the child and she needs to vent on ur dad not u and how u felt caught inbetween it all but mostly that you love her! feel me! u'll be ok lean on your girl friend for that physical support not the friend keep her the friend! Good Luck and if ya need to chat holla back at me anythime ok...keeo ur head up ! ur not screwed up just goin thru b.s thats all